i hate the way you just dont care sometimes.
i hate it when you dont reply.
i really hate it when you dont reply.
i hate it that you change your ways so much its hard to keep up.
i hate it that sometimes when i need assurance, you dont give me enough.
i hate it that you're a closed shell, and only when i close too, you decide to open up.
i hate it when you stare, you make it hard to concentrate.
i hate it that your smile is perfect.
i hate the fact that you make me smile so much.
i hate it that you really do make me weak.

i am giving in, and i am falling. but im scared to trust and im scared to give it all. if you're here for a fun time and a chase around the park, i'd appreciate knowing so i can stop it from ever happening. but if your heart is set then you should know by now, im scared. and it will take alot. but if you wont give up, neither will i.

as you said, i dont need you.
but i hate how much i do.
you take advantage of the fact that i love you beyond a reason why.
but i just cant let you go
and i hate that i love you so.

teach me to forget like you do.

another day of waking up at 5pm and doing absolutely nothing.
and then having a sudden urge to clean my room... and i did! haha cleared all the clothes and shit off the floor and sweeped and dusted and even changed my bedsheets. haha extremely proud of myself right now. i finished a book yesterday. i seriously cant believe i finished it in a day. this sucks cause now im bored and i wanna read a new book. and i dont have one. damn shit.
im gonan go youtube now. bye!

we can have each other in another time.
Love is letting go,
its meant to set you free not chain you.

next time you need me, click your heels.

when you asked for this, i thought you'd actually go through with this,not me.

im so full of love it deeply sickens me.

sometimes i stop, just for a moment. and i imagine, or hope, or whatever the hell it is. i imagine we talk.
just long enough to explain whats going on here.
what exactly it is you feel.
heck, what i feel. about this.
what happened?
when did it start?
when did it end?

but all your words get knotted cause confusion's in my way. and somehow, you seem perfectly comfortable with that..
dont speak to me, dont speak because i'm trying to get you to listen..
dont.
dont run.. dont run because i'm running too.

you are the imperial judge of how i felt today. yesterday...everyday.
sometimes you see right through to me, sometimes you march past me like a parade.
and from what i see its almost an escapade.
this is the part i run away.
not you too,
please stay.

Love of mine, someday i pray you'll find something yours and only yours. a serenity coming solely from your insides.
without feeling yourself, how can you expect me to feel you?
i must choose the worst times to say the hardest things, but sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. please be cautious when youre out there alone..sometimes we dont know it and we dont see it coming but before we know it, it comes and it hits hard, so hard it knocks the wind out of you. and i can only stand protecting before you for so long..


so how do we do when we've had enough?
well i'll be here. that is, for the entire journey.

holding on, like its all i have.
count me out..
when its clear that i, find it hard to say..
and you. find it hard to care.

you have been the one for me.

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